I had a long first post all typed out about my physical condition but I guess I didn't save it properly so one day I will re write that one but the question is How has this changed me?
This has changed me in so many different ways. I thought I had it all figured out. What I wanted and how I wanted to get it. What was important and what wasn't. To say the least this has flipped my priorities upside down in a way. Not that they were bad but they were different. These days I just don't care as much about all the B.S. You know what I mean all that stuff that you get concerned with that doesn't matter when you die and does not resemble the ideal for yourself. I joked with my husband that "my last nerve got broke" and I truly meant it, I don't want to get distracted by the crap that just doesn't matter. I leave things were they belong. Life is not about getting ahead its about enjoying where you are at. Let God handle the rest. So no I don't worry about leaving work on time instead of staying late. I don't worry that the kids toys and stuff are all over my living room or that there might be dished on the counter or laundry to fold. They will get done when they get done. I don't define my life by these things and when I'm dead nobody is going to care.
My husband and kids are only going to care about the time I spent with them, and the memories we make together. The truth of the matter is that we have all these things distracting us from what is most important. Instead of striving to make more money or to be successful, I just want to get better at being me, a wife and mom.